My heart wasn't all there, I guess

Sigh. I don't know how many times I've gone back, but it seems the other turtles, jealous of Bilbo getting so much attention, kicked him back to the upper pond area. So earlier in the month, I went to the place where it's a bit darker, narrower, and probably before may not have seemed a fun place to swim...but where I knew I could find Bilbo to sketch him.

But two other big turtles were there instead. And although turtles are suspicious of people they meet for the first time, these did not run away when they saw me. It was as if they wanted me to sketch them!

So I did. But the entire time, I was wondering where Bilbo was, and my heart wasn't completely in the making of the picture. Poor turtles. One of them, I realized later, didn't get the ends of his front feet drawn. June!

I know when the kids were little, there were days I was told to go off and enjoy myself away from the family. But the entire time, I was thinking about my children, and I could not enjoy my time away from them with my whole heart. Most mothers know what I'm talking about.

It boggles my mind to think God makes Himself like that for me--He wants to be with me! Do I want to be with Him?